Dear Peter - Love of my life
1 year without you -- no talk - no touch - no jokes - no togetherness - but somehow you're there all the time
- I miss you so much - no laughs, no grumps, no plans, no journeys, no cuddles, no books or films to talk about - no food plans, not even the beeps of your second heart and certainly no plans for a shared retirement and old age.
Life goes on for me -- a very changed me.. I function, but there is a big hole where part of me left with you - and there is no sense - no whereto or whatfor - I still feel like I was pushed out into the Big Void and have no idea what it's in aid of or where I'm falling or maybe landing.
My life is too quiet - very empty - my heart feels sore and fragile - my body gets older and tired - no matter what I do to keep it going - the question remains ... what for?
What makes me go on is the care of the cats and the horse(s).. I promised to look after them to the best of my abilities and I will and what's left of me is the memory of more than 40 years of a very good life with you - you were the very best person that could possibly happen to me and you did! THANK YOU for your unconditional love, your life with me, everything I learned, for the space you gave me to allow me to become a much better me over the years -
Love is eternal (they say)
Please know that you'll always be my forever Love - some day our souls will reconnect I'm sure.
Until then please get in touch through dreams, birds, memories, smells or music or whichever way you choose - just so that I don't lose you completely.
